TAKING DECISIONS

It's been a while I haven’t been feeling my best. One day I started to think about it and I realised that ever since I remember I've been telling myself I need more time in a day to do everything I want to do. This feeling actually started when I was 16 years old and it's been growing quite a lot since then.

Most of the times I was feeling bad for not being able to simply be happy by doing what everyone else was doing - or in other words, what society wants us to do. I'm sorry but it's very hard for me to just wake up, have breakfast, go to work, go shopping, cook dinner, watch Netflix, sleep and have fun only over the weekends.  

So I told myself I couldn't be the only one feeling that way. After loads of reading, pretty much everything I found was pointing out how your day to day and overall happiness can change if you get to do the things you want to do the most first. So I tried waking up at 06:00 for a while in order to get my things done before anything else and it kind of worked but not really and therefore frustration came back. 

That was definitely a sign for me to stop and analyse why in earth I couldn't get out of bed at that time if I was going to do what I was passionate about. Pinpointing the reason was't easy but after a while I realised it was all about the purpose.

Yes, I knew "what" I wanted to do but not "why" I wanted to do it so I had to take some time to be truly honest with myself. Once the actual reason behind it was absolutely clear, waking up at 06:00 was extremely easy.